Big News

Friends,

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I have not blogged in oh-so-long. My last major blog, Bizzy Bees, was so long ago, and I’ll admit I’ve been avoiding you/it/the interweb. πŸ™‚ I have a very good reason, though. You see, I’ve been keeping a very big secret about something very small. Something so small, in fact, that it’s only about the size of a lime right now. And keeping a secret while blogging is, well, sort of a contradiction in terms. I just couldn’t bring myself to blog, because the main thing on my mind has been this secret. The Bizzy Bees blog was the only one I could hammer out, and it left out the one thing that was causing us the most feelings of busyness, overwhelmed-ness, joy, and total fatigue.

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I might as well stop beating around the bush… I’m pregnant!!

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We found out on November 20th, right before a wedding that Mike and I were both in, right before Thanksgiving, which we hosted, right before Mike’s birthday, right before we moved. Oh, and right before we left for a 2-week-long vacation after only 6 days in our new home. Needless to say, the last 2 1/2 months have been crrrrrrazy!

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At first, it totally didn’t seem real. I took 4 pregnancy tests. The first 2 were negative, and the third involved me waking Mike up at 5am on our day off to ask if he saw a line on the test. “Am I imagining it? Is that real??” It was so faint, I ran and got my glasses and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. Mike groaned and begged to stay in bed, but I nagged him awake. He trudged over, squinted at the test, declared an absolutely positively ambiguous decision: “I dunno,” and went back to bed. Later that day I begged him to buy, while he was out running errands, a dummy-proof test that says the words “Pregnant” or “Not Pregnant” on it. Well, I took the test and the word “Not” was conspicuously missing, and our whirlwind began. I called my Doctor and set up an appointment. They told me I could trust the test implicitly: “You are definitely pregnant,” they said. We called our families and told them, and several of the females on the Garment side tested out my ear’s ability to withstand high frequency, high decibal shrieks. Results: I’ll need a hearing aid within a year.

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As time wore on, my symptoms appeared gradually but mildly. A little nausea here, a little there… nothing some cold water and crackers couldn’t fix. Other symptoms cropped up, too, but mostly I was just fatigued beyond belief. I went to bed at 7:30 many nights. Amidst this, we were packing to move, and I would pack a box or two every night and then fall into bed. Despite these symptoms, it still didn’t feel real. I would have moments where I thought “I’m crazy! This can’t be…” and think I must have tricked myself into believing it. I read in one of the pregnancy books that this is a VERY commmon complaint of first-time moms. The “unreal factor” plagues them for weeks, despite some women having really awful symptoms.

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I’ve been tracking my experience to share with you here when the news became “public.” I am now about 12 weeks along. Here’s what that time has been like:

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Nov 29, 2009

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We drove down to meet the newlyweds and their family and friends for brunch in Quantico. On the way, we discussed nicknames for the baby. We didn’t want to use the term “it,” but we won’t know the sex until early March. I was teasing Mike about his tendency to flop around in bed like a fish when he can’t sleep. I called him “Floppy,” and we both thought that name sounded so cute, that Baby Icardi must be called Floppy. So there you have it.

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Dec 9, 2009

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Today I went to my first prenatal appointment. I was so excited, feeling like my pregnancy would finally feel REAL! I needed to hear a Doctor say “Congratulations – You’re pregnant!” I got to the appointment late because I went to the wrong “Dr. Yoon”‘s office first, but I was still excited. They took me in right away, and I settled happily into an office chair, journal in hand, ready for all my pregnancy-related concerns, questions, doubts, and fears to be resolved. Well, that didn’t really happen.

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Mike is out of town this week on a business trip, so I was facing this alone. I wanted him to be there, and that desire grew as the appointment wore on. Not once did a doctor or nurse say “Congratulations” or confirm that I am, in fact, pregnant! They didn’t even give me a pregnancy test – just took MY word for it!

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I’ll spare you inappropriate details, but by the end of the appointment, I was near tears. When I got home, I gave in and cried, feeling like my first prenatal appointment, which should have been so special, was full of scary moments, rude nurses, and sour faces. Not only that, but this pregnancy still felt like a big trick that I was playing on myself and others. I decided that if my next appointment wasn’t better, I would switch doctors. This appointment was with a student nurse who I would never have to see again. So… I held out hope.

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Dec 17, 2009

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Ultrasound day! The student nurse/doctor’s office sent me for an ultrasound to “date” the pregnancy. I didn’t care why I was going – only that it would finally show that I really do have a baby inside of me! Mike was able to get away from work to join me for our first time meeting little Floppy face to, well, stomach… On the days leading up to the ultrasound, and on the drive there, I worried that they would find nothing there and my fears would be realized. Mike kept reassuring me, but I fretted anyway.

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To keep a long and somewhat too-much-information-y story short, let me just say this to new moms: when they tell you to fill your bladder for the ultrasound, they don’t mean “drown yourself.” The doctor was VERY impressed with how full my bladder was, given the fact that it blocked any view of some pretty important stuff! I took care of that problem, and then we got to see Floppy! Head, body, arm nubs, and heartbeat. We couldn’t HEAR the heartbeat, but a monitor picked it up and showed the rhythm on the screen. I cried, and said “So there really IS a baby in there!” The doctor laughed and said yes.

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Jan 6, 2010

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My next appointment was with my regular OB/GYN doctor, whom I LOVED last time I went for a regular checkup. I was a little apprehensive that I had built her up in my mind, and I was dreading the visit. I thought it might be as bad as the last, and I just didn’t have it in me to handle it. But I had NOT built her up in my mind. Dr. Yoon is as sweet, attentive, and knowledgable as I remembered! She answered all my questions, engaged me in conversation, shared wisdom with me from her own personal experience, laughed with me, and made me feel very comfortable. What a relief! Especially since Mike couldn’t come, I was very glad to feel “safe” and taken care of. Dr. Yoon pulled out this handheld “doppler” thingy, which is like a mini-ultrasound machine that emits sound, but no picture. And guess what – this time, I got to HEAR the heart beat. It wooshed along at about 150 beats per minute. Perfect, Dr. Yoon declared. She also said that she hadn’t been sure we would hear the heartbeat, btu because we could, that meant my chances of miscarriage are decreased by 30%.

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The only other thing to note from that visit: the doctor confirmed that I only gained one pound since December 9th. That made me feel good, since I had told people at work about the pregnancy, and they informed me that they could “tell” I was pregnant because of my stomach. or my thighs… no, I’m not kidding.

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TODAY

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I’ll keep y’all updated. As my stomach grows, I’ll try to post pictures. I’ll also let you all know the sex of the baby once we find out (and we WILL find out as soon as scientifically possible!). Please pray for the health and safety of this baby (and me!) and for Floppy to grow up loving God even more than his/her parents do!

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LOVE.

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  1. #1 by Kristen Linduff on January 7, 2010 - 7:19 pm

    Woo-hoo!!! So excited for both of you, and for your extended families! You are on an exciting new journey that will never end. Blessings to you all!

  2. #2 by Connie Jennings on January 7, 2010 - 8:16 pm

    WOW!!!!!!
    Laura and Mike.
    I’m so happy for the two of you. I’m just sorry that you are all the way in D.C. and I won’t be able to share with you.
    Love you both–and the soon to be new Icardi!
    Connie

  3. #3 by Ginger Garner on January 7, 2010 - 8:28 pm

    Congratulations on Floppy! πŸ˜‰ I’m so excited y’all! Stay safe and warm and enjoy every minute of your journey.

  4. #4 by tamzen on January 7, 2010 - 8:57 pm

    hooray! our little ‘young married without kids’ group is close to gone, and what a wonderful thing! God has bless so many of our sweet couples this year with babies first and second. So happy for you both and little floppy πŸ˜‰ Love that you named him/her something other than it for the interim!

  5. #5 by Margy on January 7, 2010 - 9:11 pm

    Yay. I heard that working on that was going to be a new years resolution-so now you have a jump start. Your blog is so fun. Very happy for you and enjoy every moment of the wait. EVERY second is a treasure.

  6. #6 by Viki on January 7, 2010 - 9:44 pm

    Congratulations you two!!! I think you will be AWESOME parents and I can’t wait to hear whether it is a girl or boy! Whatever, I am thrilled for you! All the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  7. #7 by Mrs on January 7, 2010 - 10:55 pm

    We couldn’t be happier for both of you! What an exciting time. So glad you’re noting every moment – Floppy will appreciate it so much (and if a boy, not so much). ;-D

    Congratulations! God bless!

  8. #8 by Allie on January 8, 2010 - 9:41 am

    Yay!!!!! We are absolutely thrilled for you both! This is so exciting! :):):)

  9. #9 by shauna min on January 8, 2010 - 11:42 am

    Oh, my goodness I am so happy for both of you! WOW, u are having a baby! That is so exciting! Congratulations πŸ™‚

  10. #10 by Phyllis on January 9, 2010 - 11:36 am

    I’ve been smiling about your news since you told us! So excited for you!

  11. #11 by Leo on January 11, 2010 - 10:13 pm

    Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you and MIke and the addition of Floppy to your family in a few short months as time will go by so quickly!!! God Bless you all!!! πŸ™‚

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